drizzlin away

2007-06-24T03:16:00.000+08:00

As much as I am tired, I dont have the courage to let go.

I just dont.

2006-07-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

The security from you was minimal.
I totally do not know how to handle this situation anymore.
I am at a loss.
It seems like I no longer understand.
I just feel that things will not be any better.
Hurt and sad.
How much do you know about my feelings now?

How i wish there's a heavy downpour now..

2006-07-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

I went running alone this evening. Yes, alone. I hesitated for some time before i wore my track shoes and off i went. I dislike the feeling of doing thing alone for it seem rather lonely. I have always prefer the company of others.

There wasnt a single soul running on the track except me. It felt so weird. Nevertheless, the run was pretty okay. I managed to complete the number of rounds that i wanted to. Lol.

I feel like swimming..

2006-07-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

THE OBSTACLE IN OUR PATH

In ancient times, a king had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it.

Many loudly blamed the king for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the big stone out of the way. Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. On approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. As the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the king indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many others never understand.

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve one's condition.

2006-06-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

If only I could turn back the clock and bring the wheels of time to a stop..

2006-06-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

Mixed feelings...

I miss the donut from taka square. And till now I have no idea why they stop selling that.. =(

Make my flu go away; its making me very uncomfortable.

There's so much to study for now. How i wish holidays are longer.

Browsed through the photos and they are enough to make me feel bit better.

fighting kim.

2006-06-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

I finally met up with my girlfriends ytd. All five of us turned up and it was a nice gathering.

'The next time we meet up again will be on dec..' taken from selina.

We went to Spotlight. Jess said tt we can 'play' there. Its fun with all the teasing and jokes.

Have to settle down for serious studying..

To you; The sun will always rise and shine for you. Smile. FIGHTING!

2006-06-07T11:52:00.000+08:00

I turned and tossed in bed, trying hard to fall asleep last night.

The thoughts and feelings that I had earlier kept appearing on my mind.

I wondered how are my girlfriends and started to think more.

Then again, I felt so alone and lonely.

Thanks for hearing me out because it makes me feel abit better.

2006-05-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

Welcome home, sister. =) She's back in singapore for gd. Her work contract in UK had ended. Yup. Actually i wasnt very excited about her coming back home. U see, i had already adapted to life without her- having the whole room to myself, going to bed late at nite, leaving my stuff on her bed and stuff.. now that she's back and i have to go back to life when we shared a room together. And this just mean that i have to re-adapt again. Hah.

I am dead beat. Had a long day at school.

Thanks for the stroll and the meal.

2006-05-05T17:53:00.000+08:00

When was the last time...

- You sat next to me while we ate?

- We went to west coast?

- I played on a swing?

- I had my favourite donut?

- We take a stroll together?

2006-05-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

A very happy happy birthday to you, my boy!

2006-04-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

I am truly sorry for my irresponsibility and selfishness.

And then again, i dont wish for things to turn out this way.

I wan to make a difference.

I have to learn to grow up.

2006-04-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

I am so much contented. =)

2006-04-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

I feel so small so tiny.

Work is piling up, things just don't remain the same anymore. I dread this feeling.

I have insomnia.

My back is hurting and i have no clue why. It could be because of pe.

I finally ate apple dippers. Initially it wasn't as tasty as I thought. After some bites, I find it still okay. The apple is crunchy and I like it. As for the caramel dip, I have no comments. Hah. $2.50 for that is bit steep eh?

Friday is Good Friday which means it will be a long weekend.

This is what i feel like doing right now - Star-gazing.

2006-04-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

"Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit."

2006-03-22T12:31:00.000+08:00

Whoa. It been a really really long time since I last blogged. I'm just plain lazy. Hah.

At a loss of wad should i write. Life has been pretty much the same. I'm having common tests this wk. My one wk of holiday was jus so-so. I caught Disney on Ice at Indoor Stadium. Its great. I was alil disappointed becos the chipmunks only came out during the introduction and ending part..

I'm deprived of a good sleep..

2006-01-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to All.

Every year is the same; had reunion dinner at home with family. Somehow i felt that i dun have the festive mood lehs. Anyway, Boy came over at night, to meet me with his UFO. He bought it the other we went to Chinatown. Well, i must say that its quite fun to play with the UFO. Beautiful sight. My little cousins were pretty amazed by it too. Hee.

Hmm, rather lazy to blog le.. and wat happen to my chatterbox.

2006-01-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

I am chirpy since last night.
Thanks dear for the lil surprise. =)
That sakae frog that u drawn on my hand is funny.

You still owe me a forfeit eh..

School life is pretty much the same. Nothing much to blog abt.

2006-01-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

Sister went back to UK last night. This time round i did not cry while sending her off because she'll be back soon, around may. yup.

Sis's princess.

School still the same, not much diff. -yawns-

2006-01-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

Night Safari. I've never been there before.

Yesterday I went with boy. Its my first visit to Night Safari, thanks to his suggestion. Hee. I would say that the trip was a marvelous one. We walked the Fishing Cat and Leopard Trail before taking the tram ride. We went to the spooky Bat Mangrove Walk. I was alil scared initially because boy said that the other time his friend came, the bat flew to his face. Gosh. How lucky can his friend get. You know what? While we were walking, i felt something fly past my head and i immediately let out a scream. I looked up and it was the BAT! Argh. I am indeed so lucky hur.

Took pictures of those lovely animals. Actually i wasnt supposed to take any picture of them because Flash Photography wasnt allowed. I obviously did not know for I was still happily taking pictures until.. we went to see the Giant Flying Squirrel.. I tried to take it and later i heard someone saying out loud, " No flash please." I was quite embarrassed. In total, I was being told 3 times. Those visitors are really cooperative ya. Not that I am not cooperative, its just that i cannot resist the temptation to take photos of the lovely animals. Hee. I shall put up some of the pictures that i took before I was being told not to.

I forgot wat's this. Porcupine?

Barking deer

Tt's the eyes of the Leopard Cat.

:)

Where's my Otter?

Oh ya, I had Henna.

How i wish i have longer holidays...

2005-12-31T15:33:00.000+08:00

Hey.
I met up with my baobei yesterday. Its great- the chats, the gossips, the shopping, the laughter...
And we still got the same taste in thing eh. *winks

this is like the only 'upright' picture tt we took becos...

the rest of them had us making funny faces..

whaha. this reminds me of the one we took in her digi cam. tt motion pic.

I just enjoy her company so much.

=P

So sorry that i got to leave early last night. And yes, we shall hang out again soon.
Love you baobei. take great care ya. =D

2005-12-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

This year's Christmas is just so-so.

Yesterday I went to fish crab with boy and my brother at the sembawang park. We reached there at around 5pm and by the time we started fishing its 5.30pm. Thirty mintues was spent on setting up of the net.

Quite disgusting to poke the wire through the eyes of the fish. tt's to secure the bait for the crab.

We got to throw the net into the water and take it out every now and then to see if there's any crab. Sad to say, we did not even manage to catch a single crab at the end of the day. Haha. Its okay, i shall wait for the next 'fishing session'.

2005-12-23T13:29:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I caught The Chronicles Of Narnia. Splendid. In my opinions, its nicer than King Kong.

Thanks boy for the Cd though it still cant work. Much appreciated.
I was thrilled to find the hidden note. YAY!
I am waiting for you to find my Hidden Letter.
Its pretty amusing that we will have similiar thoughts at times.
Anyway, happy 7th months.

Sister is coming back tomorrow. Horray!
I've not seen her for more than a year. Miss her so much.
I am getting a lil excited. Hah.

2005-12-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

I caught Mayday's concert at The MAX Pavilion at S'pore Expo on saturday nite with boy and bro and his fren. All thanks to my uncle. He gave us 4 free tickets. Yup yup. Well, my seat was sooo far away from the stage. I could barely see them performing on stage, had no choice but to see the big screen. abit sad hur. Tt's only for awhile, i still managed to catch some glimpses of them every now and then.

Audience-High. Enthusiastic. They pratically stood up throughout the concert, waving the lightsticks in their hands to the beat. Sang along with Mayday, they're rather loud. I did not have any lightstick so I waved my hand but..tt's for awhile only, like 3 seconds and i quickly put my hand down. its funny lehs. I seemed to be the only one to wave. Recorded some of the songs i like.. and in turn out that all the recordings had both boy and my voice..arwh~ shld have keep quiet.. haha. The sound system wasnt gd -too loud. Poor eardrums. Even when i tried to sleep, i could still hear the 'eeee' sound..

Nevertheless, i had fun. ^o^

2005-12-10T15:26:00.000+08:00

Someone dear to me told me that we seems to belong to two different groups of people.
Its not the first time.
Is there any meaning to it? Or just plainly a thot of yours?

This small thot of yours definitely made me uneasy.
The joke was alil too much.
You said that maybe u still dunno me well. disheartening.

Why is there always a tendency for people to classify those around them into certain category?

2005-12-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

My left eye was swollen earlier this week. It was painful. I couldnt even open my eye big for it'll hurt. So I ended up with a small-sized eye with no double eyelid and a normal-sized eye with double eyelid. Gosh, an awful sight. Finally, its recovering. Yay.

I caught Chicken Little on friday. Cute and Funny. I don't like the plot, it doesnt really make any sense to me. By the way, this movie is quite short. On the whole, I had a good laugh. Chicken Little and the Ugly Duckling are a couple. Whoa ha. It certainly did not come across my mind. I like the fish. =)

Suddenly I felt that life is so fast-paced that I seem to be trying hard to catch up. Catch up with time, with work and many other things. I dunno why. Its already the start of December. This year is ending, 2006 will be here soon. I wonder if this is a good thing. Is it that as we grow older, time will at the same time, pass even more quickly? Sometimes I wish that I can go back to the days during my sec sch.. miss the good old times with my baobei, wen, jess, sel, emel.. 05 bananas.. hope everyone's doing fine.

Thanks boy for your concern. -hughug-

2005-11-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

I am back to normal; am a happy girl now.

Thank for being so patient and tolerant with me. I know that for the past few days, you dun feel good as well. Still, I wan to thank you for the present. I was quite shocked when you sent me that message. Lying outside my door-step were a card and a box of cookie from Mrs Fields. The card was really big. There's still another card inside the big card and another card inside the second card. So, in total i had 3 cards. I was overjoyed. I like this alot alot more than the one you made for me using candles. Both were nice. -beams-

His card for me. =)

I did this. Boy claimed that its too orangy, like chinese new year.

This was done by me too. Hee.

The cookie was lovely. Very beautiful indeed. Its a pity i forgot to take pic of it. And when i wanted to, I realised the cookie broke into pieces. I was too careless. SIgh. I tried putting the pieces back in place but i still failed. I just cant figure out where should i place some of the pieces..

Thanks for everything. Love you.

Till now, i still cant do the french knot. Anyone knows?

2005-11-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry for being unreasonable and harsh.

I did not feel distant from you neither do i think of giving up.

I am just so not myself lately.

I miss you.

2005-11-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

I am so not myself lately. Emotional- Urgh.

Have been staying up late. I must sleep early cos i have dark eye rings.

I wan more time; so i can complete my thing and show it to you.

2005-11-09T19:17:00.000+08:00

I am done with OP.

I dun think i did well. I was so nervous la even though my group was the last to present. arrhh..

Anyway, its over. tt's gd =)

2005-11-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

Before you came my way...

My life was okay...

But not that grand or anything- it wasn't complete.

Why?

Because: You were missing.

2005-11-02T17:07:00.000+08:00

things tt u said to me have been going through my mind many times since last nite.

excuses- tt's wat i have been giving u all this while.

those do sound unpleasant to my ears.

i just felt tt e prob always lies in me, isnt it?

2005-10-29T20:40:00.000+08:00

I m bored tt i dunno wat i shld do to pass my time.

Holiday is here but i am not exactly very happy.

I have no idea.

I suddenly feel like going for a swim.

All rite, that's kinda hilarious since i cant swim la. =(

2005-10-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was way so much relaxing at east coast park. At first boyy suggested going to sembawang park to catch crabs. i've nvr try fishing or catching crabs before. kinda new to me. anyway, we settled down at a shady spot. boyy was so nicee.. he brought along laptop. i watched The Duke of Hazzard n later we played Dota. haha. i must admit tt e game aint easy to play or tt i m poor at it since my player always died shortly.

We simply slacked around till 5plus before we decided to ask ard if there's any shop tt rent fishing rods. sad to say, there isnt any. We walked all the way from the mac to the hawker centre. tt's a pretty long walk i must say. bbq chicken wings, stingray n satay- tt's our dinner. yummyyy. the chicken wings are tasty though its kinda small la. the stingray wasnt realli nice. we went to sit at the beach. oh man, we are lucky. there are stars but not as much as the first time we saw. yupp. still, i think it's a beautiful sight.

a memorable day. thanks for e perfume. (=

2005-10-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

Last nite my family went out for dinner with grandma. yup,the dinner was nice n its grandma's treat becoz she struck 4D. whaha~ after the dinner, my bro initiated to go play with boyy. both of them are of the same frequency ah, want to play pool.. n yes, i went with them in the end. U noe, i haf to be there or else the atmosphere will be weird huh. haha. boyy, dun ask my bro wat i haf been doing for he'll not betray me. *grins*

today we went out to town. yup, the three of us again. we helped my brother to choose bday present for his gf. i am actually euphoric at the idea of helping my bro deliever the bday cake to them when the clock strikes twelve. doesnt tt sounds like i m on a task or wat. whoo. anyway,i m not sure if he do need our help. haha.

i m kinda worn out now, i need to rest.

2005-10-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

I was soo relieved when my chem paper was over. Yup, i din realli feel happy afterall. instead i was worried abt whether i can pass my subjects and be promoted.. Went to haf lunch at kfc with the jh, jas, ruth n sh.. met up with zhu zhu in the afternoon.

We caught The Myth at e big big cinema near bugis. If i am not wrong, i suppose its Prince. simply love the cinema though its a lil ulu. the cinema halls are really spacious, mind u. i shall put it in this way: the smallest cinema hall at Prince is like twice the normal size of the biggest cinema hall.. yeap. Went to shop at suntec. zhuzhu suggested watching another movie, 'wait till you're older'. At first i thot he was just joking but he wasn't. movie marathon ya? silly him. he claimed that watching 2 movies in a day is the same as watching television programmes for the whole nite. I gave in to him. whaha. =) we watched Goal, the second movie for the day at marina since 'wait till you're older' wasnt showing over there. a tiny bit of disappointment.

Oh. before i forget, zhu zhu bought 2 pieces of accessories for me. One of which was a pair of earrings tt he had chosen. whaha. thanks alot. pretty fun day for us. (^o^)v

2005-10-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

I shouldnt be online n blogging right at this time. I m taking a break from all the studying so i guess it shld be all right. hmm, studying is such a headache when u have to memorise stuff n know how to apply all that you had learnt for the whole year. this is something tt i am incapable of as i dun really understand some of theories n often confuse them with others. =( enuff of studies.

the thot of thursday(my last paper) jus make me feel excited n happy.*beams widely* i noe, u will think tt i m like a small kid. hah. =D

thanks zhuzhu for being around.

2005-09-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

Promos will be in abt 2 wks time. hais. to say e truth, i m quite worried. i wan to pass and be promoted. enuff of saying, i have to be more motivated for my studies now. i got to start studying. after which, i can enjoy. yess. i m looking forward to tt day. all the shopping, movies, hanging out with frens.

2005-09-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

whoohoo~ finally i met up with my baobei today. u noe, both of us have different schedules so its been sooo long since we last went out together. Had a great time- chatting n shopping.. though i din buy anything today. i couldnt find the skirt tt i eyed on. humph. really miss the good old times. we shall go out again after my promos ya. promise. =)

-my btf-

2005-09-01T16:04:00.000+08:00

went back to bp yesterday. so nice to see bananas again.

my girlfriends-

Wen n I went home to change n meet out in town. shopping. we went down to jp to meet sel n emel for dinner. we chatted for quite a long time at pizza hut. nice gathering. jess, u got to make it to the next gathering ya. hee.

it looks as though its divided into 2 hur..

oh ya. this tee is soo cute. its from HusHusH which sells baby wear. u bought it for me knowing tt i like it. even though it is the largest size, 120. i doubt i can wear it. whaha~ anyway, thanks for e surprise. i love this tee alot.. -smiles-

enjoyable day. =))

2005-08-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

my favourite donut. yum yum. hee~
i din noe tt u'll get tt for me. thankss.

2005-08-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

Journey -Zhang Shao Han

It’s a long long journey
Till I know where I’m supposed to be
It’s a long long journey
And I don’t know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It’s a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I’ve spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what’s my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you’ll be standing by my side
It’s a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don’t even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can’t see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It’s a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It’s a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you. to you

2005-08-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

Words do hurt when u dun actually mean what u say. I mean the guys. I've heard of different incidents.. they jus say whatever on their mind. argh. do think before u speak. It do affect us in a way.

2005-08-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

Finally my voice is back. I am really glad. I had a bad sore throat then and my voice was so terrible. I was told that my voice sounded like a frog. Humph! wat a nice comment. thanks qi for the honey water ah. hee.

I was happy ytd. really happy. ((=

2005-08-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

I just grumbled tt i m restless, not in e mood to study.

And there u came with my favoruite candies n chocolate. I just realized that all of them are Meiji products.

Thanks. =))

2005-08-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

Ytd was niceey. I got to shop n bought stuff. Yeap. =) Watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Seriously i think tt its jus so-so only.. maybe i expect too much. Wedding Crashers is nicer- hilarious..

Last nite, my dad wasnt feeling well-kept vommiting. He woke up in e middle of the night n rushed for e toilet every now and then. First to the toilet in e kitchen n to the toilet in his master bedroom. The cycle jus goes on. Mum was attending to him. Its my first time to see him in so much pain. Todae was my turn to be in great pain. I accidentally kicked my last toe against e chair n it started to bleed. All rite, i noe i m clumsy n careless. )=

2005-08-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

I onlyy slept for 4 hrs as i suffered from insomnia. My eyes were still half-closed when i left home. On my way to e bus stop, i saw an old man lying down at e carpark besides a red car. I got a shock when i saw him lying there. He wasnt moving at all. so freaking scary. how can he be sleeping? i haf no idea..

I only learnt of wat exactly happened to e old man when i told my mum abt wat i saw in e morning. She told me tt he passed away. *shivers. 'life is so fragile.' this thot jus came across my mind. cherish those ard u. =)

2005-07-31T20:29:00.000+08:00

Ytd was fruitful and nice. i woke up at near 10. its rather early for me because i normally get out of bed near 12. Went to e lib to study. studied all e way till 5plus. i was pretty surprised tt i cld actually sit still on e chair for so long. erm, quite long hur. tt definitely will not happen if i m studying at hm, i wld haf been distracted by e tv, bed or comp. all rite. tt's an achievement. haa.

went down to town after studying. had omu rice for dinner. unagi- yummy. went down to raffles to catch e fireworks display, its so beautiful. after which we went to marina square. went to buy e levis jeans tt i eyed on e other time. *ben dan, i owe u a treat. din get to shop much since most of the shops are already closed. still haf a list of things tt i wan to shop for. hee. =)

2005-07-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

So little time and yet there are simply so much things to do.

hais. stupid hazel rushin us for our written report tt's due on fri. i totally haf no idea on how to go abt doing my part which is 'methodology'. tml will be a long day. will be having 2 tests on fri. oh no.

gotta go n do my wp. *grumbles*

2005-07-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

it jus felt so weird to suddenly go back to tt since i last went.. which is like how many mths ago. gosh. but in the end i still chose to go for tt. i felt abit out of place at first since i noe nobody there. overall its still okay. i do mix around w the gals n they r quite friendly. i m back to tt again?

the vice captain said tt i owe her alot of rounds round the tracks since i did not go for tt for so long. got to run 4 rounds for every tt training u miss. tts e new rule. my first reaction was hurr? oh no! she told me she was jus joking n told me tt i got to come for tt from now on. phew. scare me. if tts really e case, i really owe her so so so many rounds.

been rather down recently. stressful. hais.

2005-07-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

Rather cold today. Sch was rather short because of the listening compre. I felt tt its rather easy. Anyway i went to meet wen after that. We talked alot, loads of laughter. love u wen. whaha. *wink* I was so worn out when i reached home. Still got to do the stupid written report. hahs. shall stop here. my brain is so lagging.

2005-07-16T20:33:00.000+08:00

Another week has passed. Time seems to fly so quickly. I really feel so.

Went to town again to look for presents. I just realised that i made a wrong choice ytd. hais. wat to do.

2005-07-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

My second time to see the doctor this week. The first time was due to stomach pain. The doctor said that its because virus infect my muscles. Virus infection. Couldnt really understand what he meant.

Went to see doctor again. He was like ' eh, u again ah.' Was down with fever, flu and cough. Feeling uneasy, shivering with cold. I dislike falling sick, dislike taking medicine. I felt like a pig. Had been sleeping n sleeping for the whole day, probably due to e medicine. Thanks for coming down and pass me the cool pack. Sry for makin u feel tt way. I dun mean it. =(

2005-07-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

I had my chem spa today. Glad tt its over n sad as i din get e answer. Couldn't realli do e calculations part. tried hard to figure it out but nth comes out. in the end, i just scribbled my way through n got 3 for my ans. The correct ans was actually 5. sigh.

Sch is still the same.

2005-07-03T16:27:00.000+08:00

I caught Initial D ytd. Bit funny becoz of the lame jokes they cracked. Overall, its still okay. Anyway, jay simply cant act. Hah.

Ran into many ppl ytd including my baobei. She's just standing right behind me. Got a shock. Whaha~

Enjoyed myself. =)

2005-07-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

Lethargic. Had so many tests this wk n i doubt i can even pass.

Long wkn since monday is sch holiday. triple yay. i need a break.

feel so distanced.

2005-06-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

Ytd.

Went to IMM with my bro n his gf. He wanted to get the Initial D goodies. It is stated that one has to produce e coupon n some other stuff in exchange for the Initial D goodies. He asked me along becoz we had a whole lot. My auntie gave it to us. We got the Initial D goodies and i got the poster tt i wanted. Whaha. A different and new experience.

Today.

Restless. Lack of slp.

Went to cp for lunch, walked ard. Bought a pair of shoes. Wanted to buy e top tt i previously saw but its no longer there when i went to the shop.

School starts tml. -yawns-

2005-06-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

The world is wounded, tired, disappointed, alone.

The man soul is disoriented, unsatisfied, sad.

Why? The reason is one and one only, disarming in its simplicity and truth: the world, the human being, suffers from a lack, something that seems to have forgotten, the greatest thing in the world.

We want to live forever for the same reason for which we want to live tomorrow. Why do you want to live tomorrow too? Because someone loves you, because there is someone that you want to see tomorrow as well and love him/her back. No other reason explains our desire of living if not to love and to be loved: living is to love.

2005-06-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

Ytd.

I really appreciate all who sent messages to wish me happy bday. thanks ppl.
Thanks mum for e durian cake. Thanks bro 4 e treat tt day. Lastly, thanks to U for everything.

Today.

Happy Bdae Jieying. Jus a day younger den me. Heh. Met up w her n went for the MI class gathering. They gave each of us a birthday card, a small tiramisu cake n sang bday song for us. That's so sweet of them.Thanx jy 4 e eeyore. whaha.

I must say tt I m rather unlucky today. I stepped on somebody's vomit! I really cant figure out why i fail to see the vomit. Its just so so so disgusting n yucky. Urgh. Jy is jus as unlucky. She stepped on it too n almost slipped. Luckily she held on to my hand. Hurried to e nearest toilet. We saw a cleaner cleaning up e mess after we came out from e toilet. I think we r jus plain unlucky. Oh yes, another thing. Just like tonite when i took e lift home, i realized tt someone just urinated in the lift. I am sure that its urine n not soft drinks or wat. The lift simply stinks. Terrible. Inconsiderate ppl i must say. I wonder why the person choose to do sth like tt. *shrugs*

2005-06-13T15:27:00.000+08:00

Haven been bloggin lately.

Anyway, my sis may be coming back during dec. That's great. I miss her alot. Hopefully, she can get the air ticket. Yeap. Pray Hard. Heh.

Sigh. Only 2 wks of holidays left. Lots of work yet to be done.

2005-06-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

Thanx for the e sweets n chocolates. Bus trips~fun.

Went to catch 'My bf is type B' with wen on fri nite, after which we went to take the nite rider to her hse. the movie was funny. Wen was so scared of cockroaches tt she suddenly jumped next to me, giving me such a scare tt i let out a scream. she screamed too when she heard me scream. whaha~ We chatted alot, till 4plus in e morning b4 we went to slp. The sleepover was fun. (^o^)

2005-06-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

The june holidays is finally here n yet i dun feel exactly excited or happy abt it. There are jus so much things to do. Got to catch up with 1st 3 mths work. Loads of homework to be done. Tests lined up during the first wk when sch reopen. Project work too. Urgh. Whatever it is, do play hard n work hard during e holidays. =)

2005-05-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Starry, Starry night. My first time to see so many stars. nice. =D

2005-05-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

i've given it some serious thoughts before deciding. yup.

2005-05-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

Ytd.
watched 'Are we there yet' with him before meeting hw n ch. the movie was not bad, quite funny. i was a little shocked when i saw ch. hah. maybe its becoz i din c her for a long time. hw is still e same though. hah. we went shopping. ch bought her tee n her hair wax while i bought a top from mango. hw was e only one who went home empty-handed. she told me sth tt left me thinking.. it did not come across my mind tt he's like tt. anyway it was already in the past. thanx for telling me gal.

Today.
went to toyota showroom with my family before heading to my grandma's house for the belated mothers' day celebration. they ordered buffet. the food wasnt realli v nice. heh. tml is a day of tutorials.. *yawns*

2005-05-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

Rainy day. it has been raining since last nite till today. dragged myself out of bed in the morning. wanted to continue slping. hah.

wkn is coming. gd. to me, jc life is becoming more like a rountine. lectures, tutorials, quiz and tests every now and then.

2005-05-02T11:16:00.000+08:00

his bdae ytd. met him at 9plus in e morning. he brought me to old airport rd to haf breakfast before going down to east coast. n yes, we took cab again. i told him tt i m going to count e number of cabs we took. hah. we cycled at east coast. wanted to try fishing but i think its not exactly fun so we gave it up.

e next place was marina bay. we went to e arcade. played bishi bashi. he tried to catch a eeyore(its sittin on a rocking chair) but failed. wasted 7 bucks on tt stupid machine for nth. went to fly a kite. my first time. we bought one with rainbow colours, e others were jus plain too kiddish. powerpuff girls, pikachu.. muhah. yeah. its not tt easy to fly a kite. we had a hard time. our kite did fly quite high but it came down awhile later. its okay. at least our kite did fly. alot of ppl were there too. their kites were jus like ours, cant fly high up in e sky.

took cab to sentosa. its our fourth time on a cab. we went to e underwater world n dolphin lagoon. pink dolphins.. aww~ i like pink dolphins. so cute. its a pity tt the whole session onli lasted for abt half an hr..? rather short. nvm. went to take cable car. its been a long time since i last took a cable car ride. nicey.

we had muddy mud pie at coffee club. yummy~ took cab to esplanade. had our dinner at thai express. i was so bloated after e dinner. he bought Chocz chocolates for me. went to catch 'the interpreter' at gv marina. rather boring. almost dozed off. he decided to walk out of e cinema n we did. khai boon called to tell me tt there's fireworks. sigh. i missed e fireworks becoz i was in the cinema then. wat a pity. argh. i suddenly remembered sth. he left e kite at e coffee club. =(

sat at e bridge n talked for awhile before going hm. btw, i counted e number of cabs we took.. it was 6. gosh.

thanx for bringing me to so many places. i had fun. =)

2005-04-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

wee~ i finally found e bag tt i saw e other time on a gal. its from b.u.m equipment. yup. i bought it n a pair of shorts from funfit. walked around bugis for quite some time, lookin for a suitable present for xiao gou. in e end i bought a converse shirt for him but i dunno wat size he wears. chose 'm' size since 'l' is realli v large. hah. hopefully it fits him nicely.

2005-04-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

my chinese ps talk is done. need not crack my brain cells on wat to say for my 'lao huang mai gua'. i told e class a xin li che yan. "When u walk into a room, u'll see a plate of fruits on e table. there r apple, banana, peach, orange n strawberry. which will u choose?" well, e results of choosing each respective fruit is becoz u like to eat. kinda dumb. muhahz.

having 2 tests tml. gosh. chem n physics. totally dead. dun realli understand e topics well at all. shall go n study abit now. ciao.

2005-04-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

another happy day for me. =D

it's nice to catch up with my sec sch frens. e feeling is so nice. was supposed to haf dinner with sel, emel, jess n wen de but in the end only jess n i r free. nevertheless, its still fun. talked abt loads of stuff. thanx for listening. muhahz. we went to catch 'Guess Who' after our dinner. though e show was rather racist, it was quite nice overall. i like e happy ending. i always prefer romance with happy endings. yup. went to mac for a drink n chat again after e movie. had a great time.

oh jess, next time be careful of the floating noodle.(dunno if its e rite name, kinda forgot) dun get hit by it again e next time. heh. shall go out someday again. heh. take care ya.

2005-04-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

it's official-happy people are healthier. BE HAPPY, live longer. it has been suspected that happier people may be healthier, both mentally and physically, than less happy people. so dear all, stay happy everyday. =D

i admit tt i haven been in e best of moods recently. rather grumpy, moody n stressful. well, today i m feelin better. i went to meet my baobei after i took my maths test. i was supposed to take it on tues but i was sick on tt day. sorry to keep u waitin. btw, thanx for ur company ya. i think i m all rite now. i haf to learn to take things slowly. yup, i will try.

2005-04-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

i wonder wats wrong with me today. halfway throughout tutorials, i start to feel naseous. totally lost my appetite. i onli drank a can of green tea for e whole day. sigh. moody.

2005-04-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

i went to catch Wedding Date with my xiao gou todae. its not as nice as i expected it to be. later i met huiwen for dinner. its been a realli long time since i last went out with her. yup. we talked abt our sch stuff. she told me tt she's unhappy to be in ij n tt she missed bp. hey ger, cheer up k? u will slowly adapt to e sch n e ppl in there. it'll take some time de. no worries ah. =)
i m still adapting to jc life. its rather stressful esp when e ppl in my class r quite hardworkin.
i realli miss Bp. e canteen fd. 05 bananas. my clique. baobei n more. miss e days in Bp alot.

2005-04-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

hah. i m in table tennis now. i get in without going for e trial. well, i feel that table tennis is abit pathetic becoz there isnt a coach to teach us. so we r going to train on our own, with our own abilities. yup. no wonder ppl said tt pj table tennis isnt tt gd. he. in fact, todae is my first time playing table tennis. i m quite bad at it. its either i miss e ball or i hit it too hard tt it flies out. muhahz. moreover, there r not enough tables for all of us, gers. we haf to take turns to practice n even share e table with 2 other gers. anyway, it isnt realli v fun.

2005-04-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

Today is a long day in sch. lectures n tutorials till 4.30pm. ran 4 rounds for pe too. tired. i jus realised tt it has been a long time since i last ran. if i rmb correctly, the last time i ran was before the chinese new yr. hah.

I went for the netball trial ytd with siqi but i din get in. i kinda expected it. Most of the gers who went for e trial had experience while i dun haf any. i m the kind who is scare of ball n will try to 'siam'. nvm. i tried my best liao. anyway, siqi was selected. poor me.=( we actualli wanted to go for odac trial but in the end we gave it a miss. i realli dunno wat cca to join. i dun wan to join back co n neither do i wan to join ccas like library or some stupid clubs. muhah. i din go for other trials so i cant get in too. i have to decide on a cca as i haf to hand in the cca form. kok ting n i actualli wanted to join business club, a cca tt we can slack. too bad, luck is not on our side. we found out later that business club was disband liao. hah. siqi chose not to join netball due to some stupid reasons. =X hah. i suggested taekwondo n table tennis. we decided on the later. heard tt there isnt a coach for table tennis, so it means tt we can slack? hah. anyway, i dunno if we haf to go for trial anot. houng jun told me tt he went for trial n he assured me tt we can get in even if i dunno how to play. if we realli need to go for e trial, we'll go next wed when they r having their trainin. yup. hopefully i m in for table tennis.

2005-04-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today i went to 'shao mu' with my family, includin my aunties n uncles. somehow it seems sorta like family gathering for this is e only time all of us realli gather together other than chinese new yr. we went there by my uncle's lorry. hah. it's sunny n hot in e afternoon.

Sigh. i am still in my 'holiday' mood, cant seem to be able to adjust back to 'studying' mood. is it becoz i slack too much? i stopped going to MI few days b4 e results of O'levels r out n even when e results i chose not to go back. i dun like MI. therefore, i m either staying at home or going out with my frens till e posting of the JAE is out. i cant seem to pay attention during lectures n i dun realli understand wat the lecturer is talking abt. moreover, we r not having mid-yr exams. this only make thing worse for me. it gives me an excuse to continue to slack. oh man. this is not gd. it's time i start to buck up. really buck up. =/

2005-04-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

Yeap. finally my blog is done. spent quite some time on it becoz i m not realli gd at such stuff ya. anyway, thanx alot jess for helping me ya. =)

Sigh. there's CIP tml so i cant accompany sara to e salon anymore. nvm. hopefully e newspapers collection will be fun. anyway, i feel that my class is not bonded.. maybe it's becoz we still dun realli noe each other yet. ya. shall stop here. goin to haf my supper. nitez.